Unfortunately my wonderful mother was diagnosed with uterine cancer back in 2001. To hear the word “CANCER” associated with someone you love is devastating. The look of horror on my mother’s face was even more devastating. You hear ”CANCER” and you automatically think “death”. At 40, I wasn’t near ready to lose my mother.
After a complete hysterectomy and many rounds of radiation, my mother was “cancer free”. Yay!! 5 years later, my mother was still “cancer free”. 6 years later, still ”no cancer”. Shortly after that, our world came crashing down. ”IT” was back. Our mother now was diagnosed with “uterine cancer that had metastasized to her lungs”. Dear God, what now?
For 3 yrs my mother has been in intense chemo therapy. I’ve watched my mother lose her beautiful red hair and her “movie star” like eyelashes. I’ve watched her grow increasingly weaker by the day. I want to help. I do all that I can and yet somehow it doesn’t feel like enough. I want to take away her pain, her worries, her nausea and anything I can, yet I can’t. I can’t do a thing; Nothing. So I will love her. I will love her and spend as much wonderful time with her that I can. I want to continue to build memories, memories that will last a lifetime . . . a lifetime that is not near long enough with my mother.
Dear God, what will I do the day I lose her? I’m too afraid to know. So please God, don’t take her yet. I’m way too young to be without a mother.
Written by Lisa Waak
